Life means more than to function. You can go to work, earn a lot of money, drive an expensive car, wear high-fashion brands, be acknowledged by society - and be happy with all of it. But maybe you´re not. Maybe money and recognition aren´t enough for you. Maybe you hate doing that good job, maybe you don´t see any sense in it and everything it has to offer. If that´s the case I understand how you feel. I decided to rather be happy than rich and recognised. Hopefully I will be both one day. But until then I use my time to do things I love, things that have a value for me, things in which I see a higher sense. I know that you can´t be happy by just quitting everything, you need to grow spiritually. You are nothing if you don´t love yourself.
Fasting - discipline, self-effacement, abjuration. We´re in the middle of Lenting season, 40 days in between Ash Wednesday and Holy Saturday. This time of renunciation in Christian calendar is meant for fasting - not only regarding food, drugs and vices, but also bad thoughts, old believes and negative emotions. It´s a time to get rid of everything - physically by not eating and spiritually by emtying your mind.
I´m a pretty relaxed person, but there are things that make me nervous. Certain situations or people literally tense my body. For a while it even stressed me out before the situation happened because I knew what I had to expect. But a few years ago I learned to handle it by using a simple technique that calms my body down: Tapping acupressure. This technique that I was taught by my naturopaths is also called EFT (Emotional Freedom Techniques) which gets to the heart of it: It helps you to free yourself from negative thinking patterns and thereby from negative emotions.
I was wandering along the beach. Stones, rocks, autumn leaves and shells under my feet. The sun was shining on my naked arms and there was a wind blowing threw my hair and the long grass of the peninsula. There was a feeling of gratitude inside of me, a peaceful mind, zen*. I wasn't thinking too much, I just let it flow, I was.
But how comes that you can have this feeling, be happy when you are alone, actually enjoy loneliness?